Yes, Zach, I am talking to you.

You are so silly and fun and wonderful that I had to give you a post of your own. My brother Zach...What can I say?

To tell you the truth, you brightened my day drastically. Seventeen comments? Really, Zach? Don't you have some chores or something that you're ducking out of right now?

You have always brought me joy. From the time when Mom said, "Are you my baby?" and you said, "No, I Mikky's Boogey," to yesterday when I read your comment about your friend who is now seeking God again.

I vividly recall the day when you were two years old, and I was babysitting. I was in the process of recording all of Mom and Dad's records onto cassette tape (because I just knew those records would be outdated some day), and you took my very favoritest of the favorite records and began chewing on it. Worried that your teeth would scratch the precious black vinyl, I shouted, "Boogey, NO!" You yanked the record out of your mouth and looked at me with purpose in your eyes. Then you SLAMMED the record down onto the corner of the coffee table where it shattered into several pieces.

That was the day you introduced pain into my heart.

I still hate on you every Christmas season when I break out all of my old Christmas music, because that was the one record that had "Rudolph, the Red-Nosed Reindeer" with all the funny sound-effects, and it was the one record that I had not yet transferred to cassette tape.

So.

All that great stuff I said about you in the earlier paragraphs? You can just forget it! I'm not really that fond of you after all.

You... Music-Destroyer, you!

But I still love you, and you will ALWAYS be MY Boogey. Which, after watching Lord of the Rings, might worry you slightly, but at least I didn't call you Precious!

Stop.

Listen.

What's that sound?

Oh, it's my blog. Being verwy, verwy quiet (and it's not even wabbit season). At least, I assume it's not. I don't know when rabbit season is.

We've had a lot of major waiting going on at our house, and that is all I've been focused on. So, I've been waiting to write, too. And then last night, it happened.

"Lafayette, Ah've got a feelin' this case is gonna bust waaad open."

"Oh, me too, Napoleon, me too."

(Who can name that movie?)

Jeremy and I are making some big decisions, and I would really like you all to pray that we use the wisdom that God has given us. You could also pray for a few small miracles, if you're so inclined. :-)

And after this, I hope that you'll be hearing more from me. And more frequently, too.

So you won't have to say, "It's a lil' ol' cricket-bug!"

Jeremy is still in the process of interviewing.

Still.

Yeah.

Not so much fun.

But being completely honest here? I needed this process to drag out. I've had the wrong attitude about the whole thing. I've been trusting in a new job rather than in God to take care of us. So God and I have been wrestling for several weeks now about where I plan to place my trust.

God (and I) finally won!

I'm not going to lie to you. I still have small skirmishes from moment to moment. But God has reminded me (over and over and over and over...) that He only does what is best. He's proved it my whole life long, and He says it in His Word. I know He doesn't lie. So even if I can't see that what He has done is best, I can relax, knowing that it really is. That's a peaceful feeling!

Having said all that, I also needed to realize that this struggle is not really about me getting a peaceful feeling. It is about the eternal fight going on between Satan and God. Satan wants so badly to hurt God that he will use any means necessary. He knows how much God loves me (isn't that awesome?) so he knows that if I start doubting God's love for me, or His ability to take care of me it will hurt God.

I refuse (with God's help) to be a tool used by Satan to hurt my Lord. I LOVE my Lord!

Therefore, the outcome of this LOOOOOONG interviewing process is irrelevant. To quote one of my favorite movies (Facing the Giants) "If we win, we praise Him, and if we lose, we praise Him." Because He's awesome and worthy to be praised!

Yay for my God!

(But you can still pray for us to get the job! :-)

To everyone who has been missing me...awww. Thanks, you've made me feel special. :-)

I am still around, just dealing with life. Vacations and getting back into the swing of things have thrown me off a little. But when I am settled, hopefully soon, I will have many, many stories to tell including but not limited to: Capture the Flag - submarine style, ear infections, job interviews, grocery shopping, Dad's fingers, car accidents, fires and whatnot.

So check back. I'll be by again soon.